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| Sometimes you end up learning the hard way.
I've always felt that giving is the best way to show that you care; a genuine care that is, simply put, pure--untouched by false pretense. But there comes a point in time, when people take advantage of that. It's like putting out a glowing flame.
I think that's one of the saddest aspects of our society--that we've been tarnished.
Sometimes i feel like just giving up; i can't win. I do something as a nice gesture and all i get is a, "Well, you didn't have to do that" or "that wasn't really necessary." Blow after blow, those little words begin to knock you down.
I'm to the point where i just want to give in and say, "You're right: college sucks and the point isn't to have any fun. Let's just hole ourselves up and wallow in self-pity." Ok, so i lied....I'll NEVER do that. The college years are supposed to be the best time of our lives, but i feel like they're just a part of my education. I'm a social person, but i'm stuck with a bunch of non-social people. Everyone is absorbed in their own life and it doesn't really include me. And now, my friends are leaving. What on earth am i going to do? I have a feeling, next semester will be about finding new friends, as hard as that's gonna be.
I mean, there's some nights (like on Fridays and Saturdays) when all i want to do is go out for a drink, but my high heels on and dance the night away. Or go to a movie or go shopping or just watch a movie in my own house and NOT watch "Say Yes to the Dress." Ugh...stupid show. Basically, it's about girls who spend way too much money on a wedding dress. Oh, and of course, there's tons of drama. Not worth my time.
Ok, so this turned into one huge rambling. Sorry.
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| So...i just have to say that meatballs and I are best friends....like we're tight!
I decided, with an hour and a half before going out to dinner, that i would make some homemade meatballs in a homemade pasta sauce. I did all within an hour (including cleanup), which is pretty amazing! And let me tell you...those meatballs are fan-freakin-tastic!
Ok, now off for some delicious wings...that i don't have to slave over a hot stove for ;)
Peace
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| Today is such a gloomy day. Don't get me wrong, the weather is lovely and the birds are singing and there is so much life surrounding me (especially ladybugs), but the sun has disappeared. Anyhoo, i had a moment just a few minutes ago that instantly brought me back to a scene in "American Beauty." Here are the actor's lines: Ricky: It was one of those days when it's a minute away from snowing. And there's this electricity in the air, you can almost hear it, right? And this bag was just... dancing with me. Like a little kid beggin me to play with it. For fifteen minutes. That's the day I realized there was this entire life behind things, and this incredibly benevolent force that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid ever.
Video's a poor excuse, I know. But it helps me remember... I need to remember. Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it... and my heart is going to cave in. Maybe i'm one of those weird people, but i love that scene. Who would've ever thought you could find beauty in a plastic bag! | | |
| Happiness.
Right now, it's coming in 3 forms: running (which at the moment, i can't really do, since breathing is problematic...), cooking/baking, and dancing!
Shawty's like a melody in my head....Holla!
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| What a wonderful ending to a no-good, bad, horrible, rotten week.
God truly shows His love and grace in wondrous ways.
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